UNWRITTEN

I see the romance display

on the screen in front of me

and smile in agonizing hope.

I have been sucked into the story

and my heart has fallen in love.

I watch the story unfold before me,

my heart breaks

as I watch my dream come true

for her instead of me.

Then the final scene leaves me

with an empty feeling,

a deep ache and longing

and I realize,

that is not my story to have.

I must write my own.

SECRET CHRONICLES

I have a story to tell you.

I’ve written the secret chronicles

That encompass the tragedies

And victories alike,

Of a life lived.

I hold in my hand a diary of sorts

Full of many truths, answers, 

And mysteries revealed.

But I have put a lock

On the book 

In which I’ve written this story.

These written truths

Will remain a secret

Evermore.

For I haven’t the courage

To break the lock

And allow the written words

To speak out loud

And break down the walls

Between us.

CANT LET GO

Like a rain cloud

that won't let go

of its shower,

I dwell in a constant state

of suppressed expression.

With a bitten tongue

and clenched fists,

I'm entangled in the chains

that keep me bound

within myself.

My voice remains

on paper alone

articulating itself

only through my pen.

I fear that my words

will fall like acid rain,

or like raindrops into an ocean.

I fear they will be like

droplets upon the desert earth,

delivered only to evaporate

into nothingness.

like a rain cloud

dark with a steadily building storm

yet passing by

without even a hint of rainfall,

I can't seem to let go.

DEAFENING AND BLINDING JOY

I can't hear anything

but your music

which fills my ears

and my soul.

My soul is overwhelmed

and must pour out

into a smile

that spreads across my face

exploding into laughter.

I turn my face towards the sky

to see the boughs of the trees

dancing in the wind.

My spirit dances with them.

As the sunlight filters through the trees

and illuminates the beauty of the world

around me

and the wind kisses my cheek,

I realize the meaning of joy.

MISSING

She was a girl i never knew.
I see how her abscence
has broken the hearts around me.
And my heart has broken with them.
She was a girl I never knew,
but I know the joy that she used to bring.
Because sadness now replaces it.

THE GREAT FIRE OF 1394

a great fire arose

and burned through my life.

i was left with nothing

but the painful and desolate aftermath.

my broken heart

called out into the gray haze

without reply.

forsaken and tormented,

i crumbled as ashes into the

ashes of my life

and what was.

ashes upon ashes,

days went by

that turned into weeks.

weeks gone months

and years pass by.

finally hope from the heavens

a shade of green

bathed in white light.

preparing me for the morning

and the end of this brutal night.