PRESSURE

This pressure, 

it creeps into my reality. 

I awaken to it's presence 

here building, filling my head 

with heaviness. 

My reflection 

across the room says to me, 

this is what misery looks like. 

The silent screaming 

inside me cries out, 

this is what pain sounds like! 

The ringing in my ears, 

my blood rushing through my veins... 

my heart...speeding along this winding road 

that leads to nowhere, 

are all the sounds of agony. 

I've bitten my lip in tension...

my first taste of blood for the night, 

the taste of affliction. 

My hands are tangled in my hair, 

trapped, at war with myself

to be free, from this torture. 

I feel the sting of hot tears 

scorching scars down my face. 

They disappear in steam. 

The smell of sticky sweat 

from my suffering 

whispers to me, 

this is the stench of who you have been 

and always will be. 

But in the back of my mind, 

rising from the center of my heart 

are the words once spoken to me. 

"You need not fight in this battle; 

station yourself, 

stand and see the salvation of the LORD on your behalf, 

O Judah and Jerusalem. 

Do not fear or be dismayed; 

tomorrow go out to face them, 

for the LORD is with you." 

The glass has shattered. 

The mirror maze gone. 

He's standing there before me 

arm's outstretched 

just waiting to embrace me. 

In His touch, 

I taste fresh water, 

I hear the love letters 

He's written for me, 

I can feel hope 

even far across the sea. 

In His love, 

I see colors of Joy 

and I smell nature around me...

pushing back the pressure, 

healing the pain, 

and inviting me to dance 

in the rain to the symphony 

He's written for me. 

♥ 

//This was initially inspired by a sinus migraine. See how Jesus makes beauty from pain? //the song in my head "Mi Mancherai" w/o words by Josh Groban.