DREAM WARRIOR

He walked into the room on a war path to fulfill a death wish. Without hesitation he punched her assailant in one swift blow. He had to contain himself so that he would not continue to attack the man until he was dead. He had more important things to do. He turned quickly to her, the agony he felt reflecting her agony within, blatant in his eyes, as well as his passion. His face crumpled in pain and anger for her. As he took her face in his hands, he looked her over making sure not a scratch was on her. But he was now so hyperaware of every invisible wound she carried with her. Their eyes locked on one another, he tried so hard to send his message of love, protection and desperate passion for her, to her. He was desperate to protect her at all costs. He was desperate to defend her and her honor at all times. He took her into his arms and wrapped her in the biggest and most secure embrace as if to block out the world. He whispered into her ear “I am so sorry this has happened to you. As long as I live no one will ever do that to you again.” There he just held her. She melted into his embrace exhaling her relief, pain and love into him. He took upon himself the entirety of her weight as her sobbing overwhelmed her and she let it all go. She felt completely safe for the first time in her life. Beautiful they were as they stood there, passion in her voice and a fire so passionate in his eyes.

DIAR-ETIC

Frustrated to the point of no return.

I want to purge myself of these feelings

Of the helplessness within me.

I have no voice

For my throat is clogged

With the bile of my torment.

How often do I return to this

State of existence where I can’t

Feel, think, see, breathe

Only sit within this murk.

I am so limited

By my own faults.

My own mind

Is my demise.

Who can save me from myself

This hell that I create.

I am stuck

I am enchained

I am bound and

Imprisoned.

SCARS

So I'll unveil my scars for you

to see. To see

The way that God has worked in me.

I’ll unlock my heart for you

To know. To know

That God has never let me go.

So it is with me, it is with you.

UNLEASH THE UNSPEAKABLE

happiness is a loaded gun

because one day

a shot will be fired

and it will all come crashing down.

happiness is a loaded gun

because I am cocked and ready

to release this rage within

upon all of you.

happiness is a smoking gun

because I look up

from my cross hairs

and see before me

the madness I warned you

would come,

the madness that was already there.

BARREN

I have nothing to say
and nothing to give,
yet people continue to take.
piece by piece,
I have been stripped
of my clothing
and now I lay
bare and broken
before you all.
All that i have
once had, is lost
to me...
my sanity.
I am not myself.
I know this to be true.
Where have I gone?

IN THE DEEP

Deep in this cave,

I am stuck.

Nothing to do,

but hope and wait

for the sun's rays

to creep farther in.

Maybe I'll get a touch...

just a touch of wawrmth

so it will be

more

than just an idea.

Deep in these waters,

dark with rage,

and cold with loniness,

there is a multitude

of horrors that lie beneath

the surface.

Thrashing and flailing about,

I am struggling...desperate

to get to the surface

and stay afloat.

But the waves,

one after another

wipe me out.

I am overcome.

Deep in the crevices

of my mind,

so expansive,

I'm unaware of all 

its twists and turns.

It suffocates me.

It steals my breath

and steels my heart.

Everything continuously shifting

only to further confuse

the maze

of my thoughts.

I can't grab onto anything,

I evade even myself.

I can't touch anything,

the darkness is empty.

Choking,

Hiding,

Drowning,

Lost...

in the Deep.

HOLES

She's falling down

the rabbit hole

at a chaotic speed.

The pandemonium

of her world

also falls around her.

WHITE WALLS, RED.

Give me a white wall

and let me paint it red.

Don't try to stop me,

not even for bed.

For if you don't allow

this catharsis, I dread

that I might break

for leaving everything unsaid.

I need to speak, I need to break

this silence so loud,

I need to speak upon these walls

of emptiness, void of sound.

I need to place upon them

my art of morbidity or light.

I need to place that which

has been hidden in sight.

So give me this,

please, this night.

Allow me to shed this reflection

and create

from all my introspection.

Don't make me let go

of this last thread.

Give me a white wall

and let me paint it red.

UNDEAD

The fog fills my mind

and clouds every thought

of happiness.

The darkness silences

even the echoes of melodies

once sung,

and illuminates the graves

full of the undead

secrets...

Foggy foggy night,

you fill me with fear

of all the whispering voices

coming so near.

They tell I'm theirs

to have and to hold

to lurk and to haunt

till death do me part.

WHAT'S THIS?

Whats this?
There's roaches in my head.
What's this?
There's spiders in my bed.
Whats this?
Their eggs are hatching all around,
what is that sound
of devastation!
What's this...?

THIS NIGHT

Lord I thankyou for this day

I thankyou for this night

I thankyou for your sweet sweet light

that shines down on me.

Thankyou for your grace

Your glory reigns all over the place

Sweeter than a lover's kiss,

There's nothing greater than this.

So dance with me beneath the moon

that reflects the light of your son.

I dance for you in victory

for every battle has been wo.