YOU MOVE ME

I stand here
still as stone
as you dance
.passionate circles around my
fearful disposition.
My eyes stealthily locked
on the beauty of your grace.
You are loving me
with your body.
Your body as your words
and voice.

ANGER

So overdone

I want to retreat into a place

where nothing will bother me again

and I can seethe until empty.

Will the world stop spinning long enough

for me to catch my breath?

For I feel so unlike myself.

All of this control I've placed

right in your hands

for you to twist me, squeeze me, mold me, 

into someone I don't recognize.

So I remove myself from reality,

Numb myself to everything,

and hold my breath 

until the world finally stills.

FARMERS MARKET

Amidst the chaos around us

There is only you and I

in the still serenity

of our romance.

They hustle and rush beyond us

and smash us only closer together

my eyes unwavering

from your softly locked gaze.

You are my forever

for I have already lived

long enough without you.

WILLOW TREE

Oh willow tree

will you weep with me?

For I am trapped inside

this melancholy tomb

all alone.

Oh willow tree

will you weep with me?

For my existence is tormented

by this purgatory 

of a broken heart.

Oh willow tree

you weep with me?

Lets endure this pain

together in the moonlight

where wounds have hope of healing.

GYPSY WOMAN

If you knew what it was like to be me

you would take back the words you said

to reinforce my self hate.

If you knew what it meant to exist as I do

you would close your demeaning eyes

and silence your condescending voice.

If you understood the reality that I endure

you might find yourself discovering respect

for a gypsy woman like me.

Touch the scars and hear the screams

to feel as I do.

How does it feel?

Are you any different from me?

Or are we the same?

BECOMING SOMEONE ELSE

I'm longing for something

I can't possibly have.

For I haven't even the right

to long for you.

I'm searching for that something

between us I miss so dearly

that never really even existed.

Deluded by an illusion

causing my senses to escape me

and carnal desires to overtake me.

This is not who I am.

Who have I become for you

when you don't even realize me standing here?

I lost myself

for a meaningless cause.

I've forsaken myself

only to find myself crawling to a place

of despair and confusion.

I am filled with an anger raw and intense

enough to spill out into a reality

beyond my mind.

MONSTERS IN THE CLOSET

Late nights...

my deadly deception.

Luring me into the darkness

I've escaped before,

but am tempted to embrace again.

Thoughts like a cacophony of train whistles

leave me endlessly jarred

and lonely in their wake.

I've lost my innocence

to so many things,

all taking parts of me to a separate grave.

Now I just search for peace by piece

and I long to be whole.

LOSING THE AIR I BREATHE

Every time I find you,

I lose you again.

I'm filled with grief and frustration

as you continuously slip between my fingers.

Why hast thou forsaken me?

My wonderful flame, friend and confidante.

Why does it feel like we will never be one

together again?

Speaking through one another,

feeling alive again as I 

let go

and find myself within you.

But every time I find you first

I realize I've lost you again.