BECOMING SOMEONE ELSE

I'm longing for something

I can't possibly have.

For I haven't even the right

to long for you.

I'm searching for that something

between us I miss so dearly

that never really even existed.

Deluded by an illusion

causing my senses to escape me

and carnal desires to overtake me.

This is not who I am.

Who have I become for you

when you don't even realize me standing here?

I lost myself

for a meaningless cause.

I've forsaken myself

only to find myself crawling to a place

of despair and confusion.

I am filled with an anger raw and intense

enough to spill out into a reality

beyond my mind.