WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE

provoking myself to tears

because that the only thing that lets this horrible ache out.

and even after i let it out,

its still there building up again.

where do i go from here after the rain clears?

the clouds will only stay.

no cooling breeze to push them out of my skies.

only cries.

out to no one but God.

but does God care about the ache

or does he say to me you caused this for yourself?

i mourn my dreams and weep over my heart

i curse the trials and wail in pain.

but nothing is solved,

just momentarilly alleviated.

where to go from here but in a circle.

the same circle i've seen for all my life.

i watch everything around me burn.

and now i sit listening to the soundtrack of ashes.

echoes of what was and has been.

i want to veer off from this circular path

and just simply walk a straight line.

but no i can't,

because to do so isn't so simple.

where to go from here?

i ask this question in vain

because no one can tell me.

and if if someone could and did,

i couldn't do it.

because i'm stuck.

where do i go from here?

no where.

i stay here and scream out at my fears,

pour out my tears.